D - G
Deliberation
Any lady can see that love is a choice
Meany is what I’ve been called in his voice
My knee I bent for you, he says
Moe is my husband, for all my days
Catch sight of another, is what I did
A strapping lad, barely more than a kid
Tiger is what I call him, for prey he has
By the third date we were cuddling to jazz
The heart wavers, young love or old
Toe the line or dare to be bold?
If I chose my tiger cub, will fun be mine?
He does look like a model for Calvin Klein
Hollers and shouts like a kid in a zoo
Let that be a lesson for anyone who wants two
Him and her, though, bound for life
Go away or stay, I’m still his wife
Any way you put it, my heart is his
Meany is what he does call his Ms
My knee did shake and shiver true
Moe it will always be me and you!
Desperado
I am the wildest in the West
I am the best of the best
Godhand Joe, my name be known
In the cemetery’s soil I’ve many humans sown
And now I’m about to add another to that score
I’ll cement my name in this country’s lore
So forgive me, Mr Lawman, please
Soon I’ll have you begging on your knees
Across the paces he does stand
Surely this will be a gun duel most grand
My fingers brush my grip
Lingering on the polished tip
In a moment I’ll draw my gun
I will put an end to his fun
Soon now, the starting bell will call
And then one of us will definitely fall
The cost of my fame is a single shot
So for your sacrifice I owe you a lot
Wait, did I remember to tie up my horse?
No, now is not the time to be led off course
I need to focus and aim well and true
Hang on, maybe six bullets was too few?
Should I ask him if I can buy some more?
I mean, it’s not too far to the store
Wait, did I hear the starting bell rang?
And did I just hear his gun go… bang?
Dirigible
We rise on a breath of flame
Around us, many more are doing the same
At the wind’s beck and call
Only it shall decide when and where we fall
Slower than a speeding jet
Yet here air and flame be met
No hurry, no rush, no haste we need
Of gravity’s pull we take no heed
Higher and higher do we ascend
Until we can see the Earth’s true bend
Below lie the vile, and the ugly too
But all I care about is the beautiful view
Up here there is no hustle to flee
I can simply breathe in, out, and be me
For if this skyward journey could eternity last
And all I did was travel this land so vast
Why I do believe I would happiness find
One that I would love to share with all in kind
But the apex risen we have already met
And now comes the time for this voyage to set
Slowly, softly, we are earthward bound
I only hope that I’ll hold onto this peace I’ve found.
Dissociation of Self
Follow the herd
Is what I’ve heard
Bleat like the rest
Don’t try to be the best
Individuals are weak
Single we are meek
But strong is the pack
We make up for what we lack
But how do I know who I am
If all I stay is a meek little lamb?
Do they know that I dream of more?
That I want to create my own personal lore?
No, for a sheep freethinker is a laughable thing
We are all peasants here for we have no king
The shepherd comes and takes us hither
The wolf comes and our flock does wither
I am slowly losing what it means to be me
I am slowly losing what it means to be free
But I will not this battle concede
Until from this herd I am finally freed
I am a sheep, this is true
But that does not make me the same as you!
Dream a Little Dream
Have you ever dreamt a little dream
One that like reality did seem
Have you ever dreamt a nightmare frightful
Of monsters and demons spiteful
Have you ever dreamt a waking show
Only it ended when you finally said no?
To dream is to let your mind wander
As your psyche the day’s events does ponder
We all dream and yet no two alike
For some we are voyaging on a bike
Yet others we are dating a crush
Turning, with every honeyed word, to mush
But morning must come to each and all
And we must forget our dreams, big or small
Fear not, however, as night returns
Knowing that day and darkness come in turns
So for now a waking dream we hold
Until sleep comes and we can once more be bold!
Dregs
What is left once you take everything away?
When you strip a man each and every day
I have nothing to my name
I have reached the maximum shame
And yet still they seek to drag me down
They think that I am some kind of worthless clown
There to be spat upon or worse
They won’t care when I’m taken by the hearse
All I ask for is dignity of self
Not to be labelled like a specimen on a shelf
I don’t need your coin or pity
I have grown used to this place so gritty
All I want is to be left alone
I promise I won’t scream or groan
At the bottom I have found my place
So please don’t make me hide my face
I will trouble you not if you don’t either
I don’t need your time or love neither
Simply let me exist as a dreg of life
And let me struggle alone through this miserable strife
Drifting on the River of Life
Upon this liquid road I totter
As I drift across the water
Pondering the way to go
Currents pulling at me to and fro
Shall I follow my heart and change my way?
Shall I follow my mind and keep to the sway?
Shall I follow my friends as they drift by?
Shall I follow my father until I die?
I swirl and dance between the rocks
Eddies catch and release my locks
Life plays with my hopes and dreams
Just the same as the salmon and breams
Towards the distant ocean I swim
Flowing toward the land’s own rim
From the mountain towers swept
These feeble thoughts are all that’s kept
But what if this is all for naught?
Where is the life I so have sought?
To let my destiny flow along so meek,
Is this truly the path I seek?
These waters of time and life be damned
I will make my own way to land
For if I can but break free from this
A new path I would not but miss
So long all ye who do not fight!
Let the waters of life steal your might
I will make my way my own
I will make my name be heard and known!
So farewell to thee, ye waters of fate
Upon this shore I will clear my slate
And so to mine destiny I bid farewell
No more upon that river shall I forever dwell
Drop of Light
Shine
Birth by fire
Life by light
Death by dark
Shine
8 minutes 17 seconds
I travel through the night
Bringing the dawn
Shine
Speed greater than any other
I fly through the void, trailing golden light
No, I am the light…
Shine
Before me, the universe
Behind me, the mother light
Beside me, the brethren glow
Shine
A pale blue dot
Hanging in the vacuum
Insignificant, yet unavoidable
Shine
Closer now, closer still
The world awaits
Unavoidable
Shine
Atmosphere passed through
A sky so clear and blue
My destination reached at last
Shine
Is this my destiny?
A rainbow I shall be, stretching across the sky
Or perhaps a burn for a careless bum?
Shine
No, not I
A great swathe of green below
Tree after tree, yearning to be free
Shine
Great oaks and great elms
All yearning for one such as me
Stretching higher, reaching out for me
Shine
My course is set
A part of greatness is my wish
And now I dive, towards the Giants below
Shine
No, cruel destiny!
Every tree but missed
Not a single leaf I kissed
Shine
I drop, below the canopy darkness
Further in I fall, heading to the abyss
What lies in store, in this light-lost place?
Shine
There, I see
A tiny sapling awaiting me
A small tree for a small me
Shine
Potential to grow, not yet found
But I shall be its wishing ground
Together we will grow, a giant at front row
Shine
A perfect harmony we shall make
Sundrop and sapling, two hearts made whole
We meet at last, my journey done
Shine
And so a story tiny ends
Of a drop of light and its goal to lend
Towards the sky, my sapling I send
Shine
Earn Your Miracle
I have seen bones broken and spirits crushed
To the theatre so many rushed
Pain and sorrow beyond compare
Lying still, struggling for air
The journey still long and full of pain
I don’t know how anyone stays sane
People think that all you need is prayer or meds
They really need to get that out their heads
Hard work, willpower and a pinch of luck
If you don’t have those hospital is gonna suck
I’ve seen patient and kin expecting help
From the lord above or powdered kelp
But when it comes time to walk on mended legs
And your body feels like the dampest dregs
Your spirit alone is what will take you through
Yes, the one walking is simply you
I may hold your arm and give you strength
But I can only take you partway of the length
For the road to recovery is paved with sweat
And I have never a hopeless case met
So before you start praying for change
Try something, I promise it’s not strange
Lift your gaze to the distant wall
Grit your teeth and give your all
Crawl, walk and even run
I can’t promise it’ll ever be fun
But at the end of your long journey turned
You will have your very own miracle earned
Erosion
Water and wind
Wind and water
Wear me down
Wear me down
Grind me down
Till dust I be
Till dust I see
Day
Night
Day
Night
Day
Night
The winds of life tear at me
The waters of life wash over me
I stood tall, once
A rock in the storm
A steadfast pinnacle
An unbreakable man
But you wore me down
Day after day
Night after night
You grind me up
You tear me down
Till dust I be
Till dust I see
Stress
Melancholy
Drudgery
Work
Discord
You break me
Again and again
You rub against me
Again and again
You shave off my stony skin
Again and again
Days
Months
Years
You wear me down
A proud fool I was
Thinking that I could withstand you
But you cannot be withstood
Time
Life
Age
You are the storm
The wind and the waves
I am the feeble rock
Bracing against your charge
You wear me down
You grind me down
Down
Down
Down
Till dust I be
Till dust I see.
Error
The ExPERimeNT was all i could THINK,/.,
IT hapPended fasTER than i cou1d BLI//NK
MIND -> MACHINE was what i de$ired
But now 1n this HELLhole i be M1RED^&^
UN/able to MOVE /or/ even spEAk
NeVER beForE Ha\/e 1 felt so WeAk
IT WAS MEANT TO MAKE ME THE MASTER OF ALL
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ON the gro/und my HUSK now ‘lies’
;with my SOUl i did SE\/ER my ties;
PErhaPS I sh0uld have [listened] to the 0thers
0r maybe {heed}ed the words of my MOTHERS
For my HUMAN life i did cast (aside)
Now 1t is no <different>, i may as WELL haVe DieD
For withOUT a heart I cannot truly #die
But f0r all -eternity- in DARK/NESS i will LIE
Euphoria
Life is bad but drugs are good
Even though I know I should
Quitting seems like a waste of time
Like heating up this spoon while I write this rhyme
But the pain won’t any other way go
And I won’t stop till in hell there’s snow
This is my joy and my curse
And will one day shove me in a hearse
But I need it now and I need it fast
The high never does seem to last
I know I should have stayed in school
Now I feel like quite the fool
And I probably should have listened to dad
If he saw me now he’d be quite mad
I’m sorry I stole money from your safe
From the path of righteousness I did strafe
But soon all that will be lost in a haze
And I will spend the afternoon in a daze
To mute the pain and silence the guilt
I will jam this needle right up to the hilt
A brief euphoria is what I seek
My desire is strong, my will is weak
So mom and dad I hope you forgive
This worthless child who chose not to live
I’m sorry if I cause you to cry
When you find out how I did die
Eyes Upon Me
Have you seen them?
They stare
They gaze
They watch
They spy
They follow
They hunt
They devour
Their eyes are upon me
Wherever I go
They watch
My room is dark
No light to see
Curtains closed
Door bolted
Windows barred
And still
Their eyes are upon me
I flee into the streets
The people stare
Eyes upon me
Eyes upon me
Eyes upon eyes upon me
They chase me in the day
They haunt me in the night
Please
Please please please please please
Please close your eyes
Close your eyes!
Don’t look at me
Don’t look at me!
DONT LOOK AT ME!
Eyes upon eyes upon eyes upon eyes
Staring down at me
Judging me
Haunting me
Hating me
Why?
Why why why why why?
Why do you stare?
What do you see?
What do you see in me?
I flee the light
I shut the door
I bolt the lock
Bar the windows
Close the curtains
Hide myself
There are no eyes in here
No people to see
No…
I can feel their gaze
I can feel their hate
I can feel their eyes
Eyes all around
Eyes upon eyes
Eyes upon me!
Failure
Why do I even try?
I could do it until the day I die
But no results will I obtain
No matter how much I strain
My blood and sweat by gallons shed
But through them no crown will adorn my head
I tried to persevere against the odds
But now I see it’s me against the gods
For no success will ever be mine
Whether I go alone or wait in line
So what then is the point of trying?
Saying it builds character is simply lying
Why then do I pick myself up?
Why couldn’t I just be a lazy pup?
There is a core of iron in this fleshy frame
I didn’t ask to play on the hardest settings this game
But my daddy told me hard work pays off
And at those words I could never scoff
Sure it might take me a while
And more than once it’s left me tasting bile
But I will continue to fail as much as needed
Not once for an easier life have I pleaded
So I’ll fail and fail and fail some more
I will wail and cry and even roar
But not ever shall I give up the chase
So I’ll try and try until I win this race!
Falling
Always true and always right
The sun above is warm and bright
I regret now using up my luck
Why couldn’t I have been born instead as a duck?
The world from here is wide and vast
And I wish that this fall would forever last
But the land is coming closer now
And I’m sure I’ll land with quite the pow
Oh why couldn’t I have stayed on ground so firm
There I’m sure I would have had a life term
But no, into the sky I went
Not stopping for angel’s wings be leant
And now I fall, towards the earth
Perhaps this was my fate since birth
If I land in an open grave
On funeral fees I’ll save
No, not today I die!
Yes, on this day I’ll fly!
I reach back and grab the cord
Saying a silent prayer to the holy lord
I yank and pull on my lifeline two
Wondering why we pack parachutes so few
The first a failure mightily was
Dropping me from the sky with nary a pause
Please oh please let this one work
Let it not share its failed brethren’s quirk
A catch and a drag, the chute comes out
Stopping my fall and removing my doubt
Still I fall, but now much slower
Definitely not to Heaven a goer
So while I patiently wait for the ground to come
I’ll think of life and sing and hum!
Familiar Stranger
Chloe
The day I lost you
I thought you gone forever
But now you are here
The same eyes that drew me in
The same hands that held me
The same lips that kissed me
You
But not you
What lies inside is not what was
But perhaps what could be?
No
Same body, different mind
Different body, same mind?
You are gone
And yet here you are
Standing before me
In the flesh
But not the spirit
That day I lost you
I lost you
And you did not return
Brandon
Young body, old mind
Scars I did not make
Muscles I did not have
A body that is new, yet old
Am I the me that was?
Or the me that is?
I see my parents
They see a stranger
I see my so called-lover
I see a stranger
I look in the mirror
And a stranger looks back
What colour were my eyes?
Green?
Brown?
Will I forget who I was?
Will I forget who I am?
Will I become who I am meant to be?
Flammenwerfer
I wield the flame and light
Against the crawling darkness I fight
This thing in my care is death metal
It is far more powerful than a simple kettle
Out on the battlefield this beast was raised
His destructive power was endlessly praised
I was a soldier then, full of grit
On the enemy I threw fire and spit
But this new foe is mighty indeed
If I do not win, on my corpse it shall feed
I move through my silent home
On my back sits the fuel filled dome
A shadow, a flicker of many legs
On this day for death he begs
I open the nozzle and spray it wide
I can only hope that the foul thing died
But that is neither here nor there
For in war there is neither right nor fair
I continue my walk, seeking the source
Very soon, its kin will know my force
Even if I must my own home burn
So long as they die in turn
I will continue my fight, no more shall I rest
Until I find and burn that damn spider’s nest!
Futilitarian
Reach for the stars
Die beneath the dirt
Reach for the heavens
Crawl upon the earth
Reach for the skies
Wallow amongst the filth
They told me to hope
They told me to strive
To challenge the world
Well I did
I dared to hope
I dared to dream
And what was my prize?
Misery
Failure
Defeat
To hope is to live
They said
To hope is to live a lie
I said
They were wrong
I was not
You can be an astronaut
If you’re smart
But you’re not
You can be an athlete
If you’re fit
But you’re not
You can be a celebrity
If you’re talented
But you’re not
To hope is to dream
To dream is to deceive
To deceive is to live
Don’t do what you want to do
Do what you can do
The menial
The boring
The unfulfilling
The soul crushing
Accept your limitations
Stay low to the ground
The skies, the stars and the heavens
They are not for you
What you are is what you will be
Now and forever
Never forget
Never hope
Never dream
And thus will you find peace
Gehenna
You did not repent
So shall you be sent
In hell will you pay rent
Each and every cent
For what you have lent
Eternity shall be spent
Your crime was quite severe
Your sin is brutally clear
Twas not a simple soul-smear
You should for your future fear
At you shall they laugh and jeer
And upon your death will cheer
For you have taken a life
For you have taken a wife
Life with misery so rife
That ended upon your knife
Her voice called out a fife
For this shall you always know strife
Grand Gaia
AFRICA
Cradle of life
Giver of flame
Lions roar as people flee
Lions flee as people roar
Homestead of all
Our home of homes
All glory to the origin place
ASIA
A billion strong you stand today
Relentless as the ocean tide
Cold above, warm below
Pinnacle of the world straddling steppes
All glory to the rising sun
AUSTRALIA
The land under down
Red and brown and brown and red
Death and poison and even sheep
Sing oh sing of dreamtimes past
For the day in which we all awake
All glory to the red scorched earth
EUROPE
War of worlds
Neighbour fought neighbour
Now you have peace from the pieces remaining
Democracy came and went
Kings and Empires aplenty
Always you change
Never the same
All glory to the changing land
N. AMERICA
Natives and northerners never harmony have
Cold above
Chaos below
Bang and bang and bang some more
Build a wall
Drive man apart
Tear down a wall
Bring man together
All glory to the forgotten dream
S. AMERICA
River running ever eternal
Forests dying never eternal
Land and sea
Water and wine
Festival resplendent in the shadow of God
Poverty abundant in the shadow of God
Place of joy
Place of pain
Now ruins stand lonely on the mountaintop
All glory to the ghosts of trees
ANTARCTICA
Cold barrow you left for us
Place of life
Place of death
Cold winds blow yearly yonder
Colder winds tear us asunder
All glory to the frozen fields
GAIA
Glory
Glory
Glory eternal
A world so small
Yet on it we live
All we have ever known
All we will ever see
Our home
Our place
Our planet
Our grandest of worlds for we tiny specks
All glory to the grand GAIA!
Gran-ma
Crick. Crack.
Bones like stone. Stone-like bones.
I am weathered. Shaped and carved by the river of time.
How many seconds left? Not minutes. Not hours. And certainly not days.
But that matters not, young one. For you, I have all the time in the world.
For you are my world.
Look at you, lying in your crib. Eyes wide. Mouth agape. Amazed by the sheer wonder that is life.
You laugh. You cry.
What do you know of laughter?
What do you know of tears?
You have not yet lived, as I have.
You have not danced with the dawn, held by your lover.
You have not wept, as he left you for another…
Ah, but you have my eyes, just like your mother.
I held her, once long ago. I would hold you too, but these arms cannot support you.
I cannot be there when you fall, and you will.
I cannot be there when you soar, and you will.
You have seconds. You have minutes. You have hours. A whole lifetime awaits you. Days of sadness. Months of hardships.
Years of laughter.
But I will not be there to see them.
I have seconds. You have many more.
To you, I will be nothing more than a memory, a set of old eyes in an old face.
Perhaps not even that?
Less than a thought. Less than a memory.
A phrase? A word? A sound?
What will be left of me in you?
I am not greedy, so I will ask only for two.
Two syllables. Two sounds.
“Gran-ma”
Greed
What do you desire?
Fame?
Fortune?
Family?
Your goals are too small
Your desires, lacking
Your hopes, inconsequential
Me?
I want it all.
Nothing less
I want to stand at the peak of humanity
The summit of creation
The apex of the heavens
Why?
Because I am greedy
I hunger for more
I thirst for more
I crave for more
More than what I have
More than what I’ll ever need
It’s not enough to be good
Or even great
I have to be the best
Better than anyone ever was
Or will be
Mediocre
No thanks
Forgettable
Forget it
I will climb to the top
Step by step
I will strive evermore
Step by step
I will go the distance
Step by step
For I am greed itself
And what I claim
Will never be enough…
Grief
DENIAL
This truth is one that cannot be
You were not so easily taken from me
This world is a lie and you are still here
I have yet to realize my greatest fear
ANGER
How dare you take him like this!
Do you think I will suffer this dis?
I will storm the gates of Heaven you’ll see
I will rage and fight till his soul is free
BARGAINING
I will give you anything at all
Even if it caused my soul to hell fall
For what is my life compared to his
What I do with my spirit is none of your biz
DEPRESSION
The world is dark and growing cold
You didn’t even let him get very old
They say fate is fickle and death is fair
But this is surely more than I can bear
ACCEPTANCE
I see now that he is gone forever
From this mortal coil you did sever
But if I had just one more wish
I would ask that you had not taken my darling fish!